“Ok… take a deep breath”, I think and slowly fill my lungs with oxygen. Stress floats away for a few moments as my mind is preoccupied with the expansion of my lungs and then settles back into the muscles in my neck and shoulders as I remember all the things that are currently going on. I pause for a moment to engage in wishfull thinking and my mind starts coming up with weasly little reasons why I shouldn’t be the one to have to do these things. I start thinking who I can unload it on and the catch myself. “That isn’t going to help you any”, I mumble. I love life… I really do. Especially the stretching times… “Feel the burn”, I think… “Feel the burn”….
There are times I want to just unload my whole life on someone else. But, like you said, that won’t help me any…and it won’t make it any easier. Bleh. Prayers for you, Bro.
i did a study this pas week on “obedience” and “sacrifice” – basically, when we focus on the task at hand it’s a HAVE-TO mindset, but if we focus on the outcome or who it’s for, like serving Jesus, we’re more likely to have a WANT-TO outlook at the things we must do. but you’ve found a third place – a GET-TO, where you GET-TO serve others, serve the Lord, feel the burn, feel the burn. thanks for sharing!
*smile* I don’t want to sound overly spiritual. I’ve discovered that God sends these times to you weather you like them or not, and I’m a pragmatic person. Emotionally… its easier to smile and say its a workout, because workouts have positive outcomes. And in truth, spiritual fire is a positive thing. Yeah… I get to grow. *grin* I just keep telling myself that…